Sometimes I wish I was a better person

Sometimes I wish I was a better person.

I don’t think it’s going to happen, at least not anytime soon. Why? Because I have too many Pet Peeves that I cherish as close friends, but that doesn’t mean I can’t wish. Most of the people I know have similar Pet Peeve’s and if they are anything like me, they hug them tight to their chest, afraid someone else might see them. 

The worse part about hugging those Pet Peeves is that if you hold them too close, they don’t have room to grow, breath, and mature. I know, that sounds wonky. Why would I want a Pet Peeve to grow? Pet Peeves are merely a perspective and a limited one at that. It’s my perspective on how I think and see other people treating me. 

The Pet Peeve I'm currently wrestling is one I call ‘Time Waster’. Here’s a scenario that I’m sad to say actually happened. One day at work, I had a call from one of the other stores. There’s nothing usual about that. They were looking for a certain shoe in a certain size. I didn’t have it in stock so I let the other store know and I hung up. Case closed, moving on. Twenty minutes later I get a call from the other store for the same shoe. Okay, now that’s unusual, not unheard of, but unlikely enough for it to stick out like a sore thumb. Once again I tell the other store that I don’t have that shoe in stock. Hang up... Move on...

Now the Pet Peeve reared its ugly head.

Twenty minutes later, a scruffy-looking guy comes in to the shoe department and asks for help. Yep, you guessed it. He was the guy who had both the other stores call around for that damn shoe and then disbelieved them enough to go check for himself. My thoughts? ‘Did you think I was lying? If you were going to visit anyway, why did you have the other stores call? And why did you waste my time when you were told TWICE that I didn’t have the stupid shoe in stock?’ Yeah, thoughts. My mom would have been proud knowing I kept those and the less savory ones locked tight behind my teeth.

What did I actually say? “I’m sorry, sir. I don’t have that shoe in stock. I’ve had two other calls on it already, however, I’d be happy to help you look if you would like.”  - Yeah, like I didn't know he was the bloke behind the two other calls- So what happened? We looked for a shoe he’s been told a number of times doesn’t exist and then I sent him to the mall.

I couldn’t help it. Pet Peeve ‘Time Waster’ said, “Good. Now that idiot is someone else’s problem.”

See, if I was a better person and let this Pet Peeve grow up, I never would have thought, idiot. 

Unfortunately, this guy invited Time Waster's little sister out to play and she tends to make things just a little bit uglier. 'Time Waster' doesn’t usually start with the name calling until ‘Liar Implied’ shows up. She sees red when someone implies or calls her a liar. I don’t think that one will ever grow up.

So I'll keep hugging my Pet Peeves. And wishing I was a better person. Maybe someday that star will rise and take "Time Waster' and "Liar Implied' with it.